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Lorraine Devon Wilke's avatar

So beautiful, Beth, and heartbreaking and provocative and thoughtful and brain-pricking. You and I have shared conversations on this topic, or elements of this topic, and it is a conversation I never tire of because it digs into the core of our very existence, the parts we know, the parts we don't know. The parts we hope for or imagine. You've had a life-altering year this year, with Doug's passing in particular, and you survive and evolve and remain one of the most profound, meaningful, deep and chewy human beings I know. And I'm so very glad I know you. Beautiful piece.

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Beth Anderson's avatar

I really appreciate your words, Lorraine. I love being a chewy being! But you're way chewier than I am :) I think this life/death topic is going to take a long time to work through, and I'm very grateful for your friendship as I navigate this new life. What's amazing to me is how my heart keeps breaking and then repairing itself, only to break all over again. How many times can it go through that? I have high hopes that in 2025 I'll begin to find some peace. Having you as a friend helps a great deal.

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Lorraine Devon Wilke's avatar

I'm glad it does. And though I'm not facing the same life narrative, you are just as essential to my own journey of self-discovery and reinvention. That's what authentic friendship is, I think. Mutual support and encouragement. You are a survivor on every level and though this breaking/healing/breaking/healing cycle will likely continue, the emotional, mental and spiritual muscles its developing will ultimately hold you in good stead, of this I have no doubt.

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Beth Anderson's avatar

I like that description, thank you for that. As I rebuild myself, I feel like the winds are shifting. Gonna be a rocky ride in many ways - we live in interesting times. But it will not be boring, and a lot of things, ideas, situations will have some malleability to them. I’m ready to roll up my sleeves… it’s so good to have a sister to do this with.❤️

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Lorraine Devon Wilke's avatar

Ditto, sister.

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lou J's avatar

That got to me. So much humanity there. Thanks for sharing. If you would, have a look at this earlier post of mine. I think you’ll find DJD’s words comforting and inspiring. They helped me accept and honor my dear friend’s passing:

https://open.substack.com/pub/ljurcik/p/loving-pair?r=270xom&utm_medium=ios

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Beth Anderson's avatar

Beautifully written, Lou. I had not run across this phenomenon - what a mystical thing to encounter in the wild! Thank you for your comment. My emotional temperature is high at the moment, and I’m hoping I cool off eventually. I hope you have a good holiday. Thanks, Beth

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lou J's avatar

Thank you for looking, reading, responding. Wishing you well.

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